My confidence has collapsed again.
It never even grew enough to build a stable, strong foundation. That’s what makes it harder.
I don’t feel worthy. Of anything.
I’m receiving love from my family but don’t feel worthy of it, that’s where the hostility is coming from. I’m on the defensive once again.
It’s time. I need to take the step and find a therapist.
I need to let go of this once and for all.
I can’t keep dragging this weight around anymore. I’m emotionally battered.
I don’t even know why.